Fear

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I want to cry. 

I Want to scream. 

I Want to bring back time. 

I Want God to erase the yesterday 

A natural thing but a little childish infantile 

Do i redundant if mention this thing as very heavy? 

Or do I the man who can't hold it on my shoulder? 

What's the purpose of all these punishment? 

Do I wrong if calling this unfair? 

Why should I destined all of this while someone else doesn't?

Recently I have started tryin' to realize 

I see a lot of what I did before today 

The world was sentenced as wrong to a few things 

Yes! I was murdered by small things. 

It turns out of a saying in the past that's true

Now there's nothing I think 

Now that I feel is a fear 

An anxiety of living in the time of tomorrow 

And seriously, none who tried to pull me up 

I was really a very embarrassing being

There's no strength of me at all other than a glimmer of hope 

Unless the promise of God to bring me up 

Unless the trigger to change my shit inside 

Repeatedly i prove that god always understand his human 

But many times also, I would doubt of it. 

Ah, finally I got to understand 

That there are still too many people who bear the burden far exceeds me 

But they can go ahead and through it all 

Why should I slumped in this very shallow hole? 

Storm soon definitely passed. 

But honestly, I was really feared by dawn of the next day...

 " I walk the city lonely, memories that are not passing by.

A murderer walks your streets tonight.
Forgive me for my crimes.
Don't forget that I was so young, but so scared.
In the name of God and Country "

8 May